I hate Christmas. I really and truly do.
I lost my Brother at Christmas time. I lost my childhood Hero at Christmas time. I lost my Best Friend ever in the world at Christmas time. Needless to say, this whole Christmas season thing just fucking sucks to me. December can go take a flying leap for all I care. But, despite it all, I put on the best, false, fake front in the world and I go out of my way to spread some Christmas cheer to the Kids and to the Family and Friends that I hold dear, warming myself in the fellowship and camaraderie of fellow human beings, and then I go back to my empty Home to sit and recollect with my memories of better times and better days, when I was once really and truly happy. I had no idea of how good I had it then. I had no idea of how lucky I was.
But I know now. :-)
Yeah, it's been the craziest year ever, what with all the stuff going on with me, both personally and publicly, and despite it all, I'm really fucking happy. I have the most amazing girl in the world inspiring me and reminding me of just how awesome Life can be, and she leads me to believe that anything is possible. Anything. My Nieces and Nephews are all growing up, and they're doing things that make me want to live forever, just to see how things turn out with all they are doing. :-) I can't put it any plainer than by saying that Life is Good right now. My Friends and Family all have plans to make 2012 the Best Year Ever, and the optimism that flows through my veins has me chewing at the bit to get at it already and hit the ground running. I'm hopeful that you are all in this same, blissful place with me. I hope you all have a safe and wonderful Christmas, no matter how or who you spend it with. Remember - despite it all, things are never as bad as they seem, and better things are just around the corner. No matter how bad you think you have it, there's someone out there who has it worse. Never take anything for granted. Give someone a big hug. Tell someone you love them. Enjoy everything that this Holiday brings, because there are many out there who can't enjoy it, and just as many out there who wish that they could.