Negative Creep (When I'm Stoned)

17 years ago... damn. Has it really been that long? I remember like it happened yesterday. I woke up at my usual 2 in the afternoon. I had passed out watching Beavis and Butthead on the tube the night before, and when I woke up the next day and flicked the TV on to have something to watch while I ate my Froot Loops, it was all over the news. Footage of the people gathering outside of the house and from the helicopters circling overhead let me know that someone important had died, but when I saw that it was Kurt Cobain that they were talking about, I was floored, to say the least. I kind of knew the dude. Hung out with him many times. I was a huge fan and had seen Nirvana play like, at least 25 times. The image of all those thousands of people losing their shit @ the Del Mar fair grounds when Nirvana opened for the Red Hot Chili Peppers, right when Smells Like Teen Spirit was breaking big, is something I will never forget. The last time I saw them @ the Forum is something I wish I could forget! Phooey! LOL They were a fucking great band and for someone who supposedly had it all and was on top of the world, the suicide came as a major shock. Yeah, I knew about the previous attempt in Rome weeks before, but still, I just chalked it up to rock star indulgences and left it at that. The guy I casually chatted with all those times before and after a gig seemed like the last person I would ever suspect of killing himself, that's for sure. Yeah, that last time I saw him in Costa Mesa @ Club With No Name for that Melvins / Cows gig, he had his handlers with him and yeah, he looked a fucking mess, but he was still talkative, he seemed OK all things considered, and after talking to him for a bit and realizing he didn't remember me or have a clue as to who I was, I left him alone and wandered off to check out the bands, never thinking that was gonna be the last time I saw him, but it was. What a fucking shame. Such a fucking loss. I'm gonna go listen to my Chosen Rejects Nirvana box set and just revel in all Nirvana's brilliance. makes that With The Lights Out box set look like the piece of shit it is.